Question, Quick write, and Day.

"Why? Why are you doing this? Why can't you just end it?" - Anonymous
"Because I'm not strong enough and I'm afraid." - Me

Today was a crappy day. Fuck. I was blah all day except 4th period. I was being a little weirdo and playing with my friend's white hair. It's as if I made a new best friend. hahaha. x] then I pulled out another friend's and tried to trick my cousin hahaha. Did not work out. I'm tired. I wanna go to sleep but I can't. I'm thinking. Sigh...

"Maybe its just me" 02/26/09
So tell me, how long has it been? How long has the world been getting duller? Or is it my vision, losing it's color? Simply how long? I use to be so much more. I use to try and act normally. Never had to hide, never had to run. But now everything is hiding behind my smile. Behind the fake being in myself. As memories replay in my mind, someone is yelling at me to get over it. How can I? Do you even imagine yourself in my place? No you don't, you go on with your lecture. Saying this and that while I talk back. I have my reasons for being like this, do you even listen to me? Or maybe I haven't been listening. Hypocritical about many situation, I don't listen to my own advices, I don't listen to what others say. Negativity overwhelms my mind and body and yet I give out a positive motion in person. And that's my fault. Maybe its just me.

The Day Maker(s):
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