lazying but I'm still venting

I'm a freaking mess right now. So much things to do, so much little time. I"M SO FUCKING LAZY! So I gotta apply for jobs which I'm freaking lazy for. I gotta study for Spanish speaking test, but I'm like nah! I need to HOC homework but I'm like ehh I'll copy like I always do. And the only thing I'm not lazy for is blogging and studying for globals final.

To Her; once again. Fuck you.
You're pushing it fuck face. Stop it. Just fucking stop it. You need a moment to breathe. You don't even know what your aiming to do anymore! You leave me long ass fucking voice mails all the time and you know what I do? I put the phone down and come back in a minute or something or just mute it and wait until I think it's over. You talk a lot, you talk to much, with you talking it's a reason for me to suicide. It's that annoying and horrible. You cuss randomly way to much, it's like watching that Spongebob episode when Mr. Krabs starts saying bad words (Dolphins chirping). It doesn't make sense. And every morning I wake up, I have an erged to go to your school and call you out. Saying fucking hello to your fucktard face and saying fucking goodbye because you're a disgrace. And when you rhyme. You're gay. I hate you I hate you.

I need a friend. I don't have one. I'm mad. But no one knows that. No one cares. Ahh, fuck the world.

Venting once again.

Fuck you, fuck those, fuck the world.

God, people make me mad. Go stab me why don't you. Don't worry it'll make you feel better.

5 people. Guess Who's Who. Maybe it could of you.

A. God, you make me mad everywhere. I hate you and I know you hate me. Go fucking die, shit I don't fucking care about you. Why the hell are you even in my face you little douche face? You're mad at me because I took away your chance. Shut the fuck up shitface. You never had the chance. You never had even a moment to begin with. The only time lights were on you, were the times when you made a scene and you just mad yourself look bad. Why the hell are you still bothering me? It's been a year. A year of peace and quiet I had. Without you, god dammit why did you come back. AHH! FUCK YOU!

B. I live under your roof. I hate you. The End.

C. I can't hate you, of course I can't. It'll be a disaster if I did. But at the moment, you leave me wondering. But it's ok because it's doesn't fucking matter. Nothing ever does. Right now I just wanna leave. I know I make you mad. I know you get annoyed. But at the moment, you can't even explain. Yeah I said I didn't wanna talk anymore but then you say "Sorry." You know how much I hate when you say sorry when it's something to not be sorry or there wasn't even a reason behind it. Just a random sorry. Shit, What are you sorry about? You tell me, and it's not even true. I'm not annoyed, I thought you were >:[ so I wanted to leave you alone. God dammit. If I were to get stab by anyone else other than you, I wouldn't be emotionally hurt. But with you I would. And now this makes me feel bad, I'll keep my promises as long as you keep yours.

D. AHH! Why are you even on my mind! There's not reason why you should be on my mind. Why Why Why! This doesn't make any sense. So yeah, I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at you for not being here. But you wouldn't know, you wouldn't have any kind of idea of how I feel. I miss you, can't wait to see you. Not mad at you but had to vent about you.

E. I don't even feel like venting anymore when it comes to you. Just go away fagget.

I got a muscle cramp from aiming and blogging. Fuck my life. I know maybe it's me. Maybe it's my fault. But I'm still mad. >:[

I feel Empty.

Sometimes I hate friends. Hate having them, hate being around them, hate talking to them.

But I wouldn't be Mary Dang without them. So I guess I hate myself.

I do hate myself though.

The End.

>:O Venting!

Damn stupid blah blah blah! Freaking stalker, get out of my life already, shit you don't gotta tell me what I already know. I know you want to make me feel bad and sad everyday, but you know what I think about it everyday anyways. Freaking chill, it's not gonna do us any good if you keep doing this. Because once when your annoying, pathetic, stupid, jealous self goes over my annoyance limit. You're going down. I know you're gonna read this because you know everything else about me so why wouldn't you know about my blogspot. I'll probably just send it to you. God I hate you.

In School, Communication and personal growth class

So yes, here I am again in class with nothing to do but a bunch of surveys. But I'm really blogging because I just cut myself with my nail. it was kind of epic and out of nowhere. I don't even have long nails. I just pretty much stabbed myself out of nowhere.

TECH IDOL!
WHAT SONG SHALL I DO WITH MY PARTNER SHERRY?!?!
Sherry is right next to me doing her work, I'm such a bad kid. Oh wells! :]

LALALALALALALALALA!

Bored.

Lalalala.. I'm bored. I'm trying to work on this name essay for english. I'm so lazy. My names are boring. :P

A whole new opportunity opened up for me! Especially in the music industry! WOOO!! I'm happy. :] but yet sad/mad.

3 or 4 weeks left of school. :p TIME TO GET TO STUDYING! Gotta get straight A's. I always slack in first and third quarter. but I should get my grades up. I gotta..

HOSA CONFERENCE!

So let me tell what's hosa conference. It's a health occupation competition. This year, it was located in Eugene so we stayed at the Valley River Inn. It was a really fun experience with everyone there. :D

Day 1
I pulled an all nighter because we had to be at school super duper early! So I got there at 6 and there was only one bus. Like wtf? We all can't fit on one bus with our luggage. All of us were waiting for the second bus but it was taking to long! So the people with the last name for A to M were on the first bus. Meaning I was on there. I sat next to Vanny and the bus ride was 2 hours long.. AHH Eventually we reached the Inn, IT TOOK FOREVER TO GET OUR KEYS TO THE ROOM! so we put our luggage in the people that had rooms hahah. And so we moved on to the opening session and then knowledge tests. SO MANY QUESTIONS! ahh! afterwards went to eat, watched playoff games, and blah blah. So like at 10pm we went out to go look for food. EPIC FAIL! all the resturants were closed and blah! :[ So at 11 the friends ordered pizza I chipped in but didn't eat because pizza was gross. and I hate pizza. So I went to bed and lalala. Did I mention Abby slapped my crotch?

Day 2
So we woke up by my alarm "CAN"T STOP I CAN"T STOP lalalalallaa" It was loud and annoying ahhahaha but then only Ling actually got up and got ready. Sherry, Winnie, and I stayed in bed sleeping. Then I woke and stayed up because SHERRY GRABBED MY BOOB! LIKE WHAT THE HELL! So yeah we went to go eat at Red robins and afterwards we went to the pool to swim yay! hahah x] The big pool was freezing!!! After that Jenny, Joanna, and I went to our event. Medical Reading. BLAHH! EPIC FAIL! After that got ready for the banquet. I wore heels for the first time and I didn't fall. EPIC WIN! :D After that we had an hour before the dance. I was hanging out with Erica and My Van in their room. HELLA HOMO TIME! LOL! Then we're off to the dance. Fun time. Pulling people that were shy and dancing around time. And all that silly crap. haha. FUN FUN FUN until SOME GUY(Censored his name) GRABBED MY VAGINA! I MEAN COME ON! WHAT THE HELL! Hosa Conference had become a place to get sexually abused.

Day 3
Woke up and got ready for an event. I wingged my event because I wasn't ready oh wells. and after that we went to go eat and lalala.Blah blah blah time passes..... and then bam! I approached Erica and Erica touched my crotch. WHAT THE HELL DUDE! 4th time? PLEASE! I turned around and walked away.... hahahhahaha then all the sudden My Van hugged me and STROKED MY BOOB! Yeah okay. It felt sooo wrong! AHH! Then it was the award ceremony. lalala... We got on the bus back home around 4 and started leaving at 4:30 I was sitting next to Erica and all we did was mess around and take pictures while she was eating her cheese itz freaking fat ass! HAHA :D. 2 hours later the bus driver hits a parked car. hahahahahaa damn...

After conference
My parents thinks I have the swine flu.

Dislikes about the conference
PEOPLE TOUCHING ME!
How I got medals because there was only two people in the event.
How we had to survive on our own, getting our own food and lalala.
The Inn STOLE MY TOWEL! I wrote and called, complained.. :D

In Eugene pt2

I HAVE NOTHING TO DO! we are waiting for 2 and a half more hours until the award ceremony. We had to check out of our rooms at 11 and then we wait until 3 for an event. How gay is that? We can't even do anything. Nothing to do at all. This is so stupid. :[ lalala I don't know what to say but ehh. :p

i'm on jimmy's laptop right now with nothing to do. oh wells.

In Eugene with nothing to do.

So i'm in Eugene on my friend's laptop because we have a competition here. We are getting ready for the banquet and yes Waiting for my friend to do my hair. lalala I don't know what to say but yes today is the dance. :p

On sherry's laptop.